January 2012
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Happy New Year
I tend to diminish how much progress I’ve made in the past year. It’s easy for me to tell myself I haven’t changed as much as I wanted to and I have failed to change many things, and I’m still quite messed up mentally.
But I’ve been thinking back to a year ago and I’ve realized how much has changed. I am so much happier now. My life doesn’t revolve...
December 2011
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For anyone who thinks that happiness will come...
It won’t. Happiness is not external, not tangible, not a number. You are not miserable solely because you are not the perfect weight. You are miserable because you can’t see that you are more than your weight.
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kaeleeb replied to your post: kaeleeb replied to your post: Portia deRossi’s…
I agree that the pictures were a bit overboard, and if someone was looking for a how-to manual for anorexia that book would give it to them. I think it was was always harder for me to read feelings that I could relate to, over behaviors I could copy.
I understand that. I think that any author who is writing a...
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Eating Disorders Are Not
about getting attention
a lifestyle
impossible to recover from
a result of the media, fashion or Hollywood
something only suburban, middle-class teenage, white girls deal with
about being attractive, pretty or thin
always fixed with treatment
only serious when the person is emaciated
fixed by eating and gaining weight
always a result of trauma and/or family problems
a choice (but...
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kaeleeb replied to your post: Portia deRossi’s book is the only eating disorder…
Really? It was the opposite for me for some reason. Wasted nearly ruined me and the same with Wintergirls. Although I read those two when I was actively engaged in my eating disorder.
I’ve heard that from lots of other people too, that Wintergirls and Wasted were harder to read for them than Unbearable...
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Portia deRossi’s book is the only eating disorder book that has ever triggered me. I have read Wasted and not even blinked when she mentioned her weight and all of her ED horror stories. I read Wintergirls and was inspired. I’ve read dozens of others, but Unbearable Lightness was awful.
I’m sorry. I didn’t find it insightful or inspiring or thought-provoking or really...
12. Stop thinking you’re not ready.
notanasbitch:
– Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we won’t feel totally comfortable at first. I really need to remember this each and every day.
“Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive.”
– Josephine Hart (via eatingdisorderrecovery)
Unrealistic Dreams: unmotivated →
peanutbutterpretzels:
remember:
restricting isn’t life. starving the body. starving the mind. silencing the soul.
there are many joys in life. ones that are absent when the mind is consumed with destroying the body. when you break free you will start to see the joy and happiness. first in small glimmers. it’s…
The past four days, I’ve had the worst urges to restrict. I just want to starve, I don’t want to have all of this weight, I don’t want to feel guilty, I don’t want to deal with it.
But I’ve made progress anyway!
In the past, I would have justified it to myself somehow, or let myself eat a little less, or been too caught up in my eating disorder to care.
This past...
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“I’m angry that I sat shivering in my bed at night instead of dancing or...”
– -Wintergirls
This always inspires me. So true.
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Anonymous asked: How long did they keep you in the hospital when you went in to get stabilised before going outpatient?They put me in to stabilize me because of my heart rate,blood sugar,and the worry about refeeding syndrome,but they won't say exactly how long I'll be in. :/
“There is no such thing as not being sick enough. The fact that you had these...”
– (via pro-recovery)
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Recent Personal Recovery Successes
I have not freaked out about my weight going up even though I have every urge to stop eating for a long time.
I have cut down significantly on the amount of gum I’m chewing (I still drink too muchpoisonous chemicalsdiet soda)
I have tried to focus on the positive.
I haven’t (yet) gotten upset about a B-, which is the lowest grade I’ve gotten in any class, ever
I have had the...
“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you...”
– Eleanor Roosevelt (via troubled)
Anonymous asked: hey L :) I wanted to personally thank you for the advice you gave me on letsrrecovertogether! I was the anon who wrote about feeling depressed! I am doing much better! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! You are amazing! <3
“The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren’t paying...”
– Good Will Hunting (via internal-acceptance-movement)
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A wonderful blog to follow
I am now helping to run this recovery and advice blog, letsrecovertogether.tumblr.com. I hope some of you will follow and ask for support when and if you need it.
I posted a quote a while ago that’s been getting a lot of notes, about being completely emaciated or completely recovered. I saw the quote on the heading of someone else’s blog, attributed to Marya Hornbacher. I assumed it was correct and posted the quote, but now I can’t find where Marya Hornbacher actually wrote/said it. I want to make sure that it’s not completely...
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A kind of rambling personal post
Sometimes I find it very easy to avoid myself. I can keep my mind busy with other things (like numbers - or school, or any of the other things I tend to become moderately obsessive about), but then the issues that I have still exist in the background.
I’m trying to sort through them. It’s not easy to even understand how to change the underlying issues of an eating disorder or how to...
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“I believe there are many stages of recovery … There is not a day that goes...”
– Recovery - What happens after treatment, by Kelly Garin- Castlewood Alumni
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Coping Methods
Write in a journal
Talk to someone
Make a piece of art that expresses how you feel
write a letter/note to someone
Don’t be ashamed of feelings - let yourself cry if you need to
Make a list to organize your thoughts
Write down words that describe how you’re feeling (i.e. frustrated, trapped, angry) until you can describe your feelings
Listen to music
Read a book
Go somewhere...
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Eating Disorder Recovery and Holidays
Christmas is whatever you make it, and is an excellent opportunity for family and friends to support those with an eating disorder: “I struggled with Christmas every year of the five years I suffered with anorexia”, says Anna, “and as I recovered, the way I coped with the day became a marker of my improvement. As I struggled with a late lunch, my family changed the Christmas meal...
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I need to say this.
It really bothers me how much attention and support is given to the girls with eating disorders who are immersed in their disorder versus the ones who are actually trying to recover. Those who are sick don’t deserve help too, but it sends the wrong message when their blogs are flooded with messages about how beautiful and strong they are, and when blogs become more...
Searching for Sunshine: 85 things that are worse... →
approachingthehorizon:
Not being able to go out to dinner with friends.
Not being able to go out to parties with friends.
Not having friends.
Having panic attacks.
Having panic attacks at the grocery store.
Having panic attacks at the kitchen table.
Having to go to 3 or 4 grocery stores because you can’t find…
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1000 calories per day is NOT healthy weight loss.
Just sayin’.
It’s easy to have that misconception, with all of the thinspo, the magazines, the diet culture, the celebrities who eat salads and work out 8 hrs/day and the astounding amount of unhealthy people. Even without cultural influences, it’s easy to convince yourself that it’s okay. But 1000 calories is not healthy.
Your body needs calories just like it needs...
dear people that i follow,
today-is-where-your-book-begins:
i can’t tell you how much i HATE seeing picture posts like,
a model in her underwear, saying,
“to look good naked”
or some ultra-skinny prepubescent girl, with words saying,
“to wear whatever you want”
or some teenager being picked up by her boyfriend, with words saying,
“so he doesn’t have to struggle when he picks you up”
do you realize how...
“Anorexia Nervosa isn’t Nicole Richie running along a fucking beach in a pair of...”
– Natasha (via sickly-thin)
“I know that the moment when things get really difficult is actually the moment...”
– Tracey Gold (via a-recovered-life)
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"Control"
When I was inpatient, there were a series of five explanations given for why a person had an eating disorder. It was like a multiple choice test, pick your favorite explanation: family problems, trauma, perfection, black and white thinking or control (I didn’t have the first two, so it must be the latter three). Sometimes they’d throw in low self-esteem as an additional reason. All...
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Anonymous asked: will you ever post a picture of yourself?
34549) One day I won't care anymore. I can't wait...
So true. Finally, I think my mind is more occupied by other things than it is by food and weight. It’s so worth it. I’m so glad to be a little more free of the obsession.